SO…..today I start my fast, and I’m actually looking forward to it. I’m really not doing it for any particular reason, but the last time that I did it for 60 days it was a bit of a reset button on me both physically and mentally. It started the momentum towards greater things and I can be proud of the two years that have transpired since, despite the hectic events the past several months.
I’m just happy with my life right now. It’s not anything exciting or spectacular, but I dug myself out of some serious personal trenches and am finally at peace with life. It was a painful route to take because I lost some people I loved along the way, but I don’t love them any less. Sometimes we just need to do our own shit and relearn to love ourselves….to choose to better ourselves so we can be the person we deserve to be. It’s probably one of the hardest things to do in life because it might cost you a friendship that hurts no less to lose than a soulmate would.
I miss having those more “connected” interactions. The friends you can play games with and forget your PC manners for a while. You know….those times where someone says or does something totally stupid and you just erupt into the type of laughter that leaves you sore in the morning. Those days were some of my most memorable. But life does happen.
Honestly, life is really short and unpredictable. I wonder how many of us get lost in the illusion of chasing happiness by pushing onwards with forced smiles because we miss actually connecting with people. I’m sure I’m not alone in that.
It’s going to be an interesting 60 days. I’m not sure what the outcome will be, but things don’t happen from doing nothing, right?
I’m proud of myself. Not in some cocky, self-serving way, but I know I’m trying and I can be totally happy about that.
The day that changed everything.
That is what I can make today.
No one can stop me but me. ♥